I can forgive and I will forget but I will never risk going that path again

over half of a year passed yet I slipped near the same stoplight
expecting that maybe something had changed
and maybe I can go there
just sometimes
once in a month or so
for a very short time

now I know that
they say you have to solve it all somehow
so you would feel at peace
usually by talking face to face
and it does not matter what is the outcome as long as they both listen till the end to each other
sometimes though that does not happen

sometimes you are left with nothing again
with mountains of anger to climb
to somehow find a way to hold yourself together
forget your dumbness which suggested you can try that path again
anger will go away with  time
I'm not that strong and never was
However I somehow inspired him, he says "Because of few people I am so strong, you are one of them"
And therefore I smile for a moment and then I wake up
What have I taught him, was I that dishonest?
To say "I love you" and "I respect you"
To a person that was used as a trash
because it's easy to get it back
what have I taught him?
How can you say to such person so easily
these words over the phone
again and again
never mention
that you might have been wrong
that you're sorry


go fuck it up with someone else
Cause I will never
never
damage myself the same way

There is nothing wrong with Monday

Every Monday in Facebook I see about a million posts like this one "Shortest horror story: Monday".
Actually because of such things I was doubtful whetver to use "Monday" in one of my songs since I felt I am doing something prohibited. In that song I used it as a new start for something and that is basically what Monday is to many people. It is one of the days of the week and that is normal. Also, it is the start of the working week, which means that most people go study or work after having some leisure time on the weekend. Which is also completely normal.
Today my holiday from studies ended and I went to learn something new. I couldn't say I wasn't lazy or that I didn't want to go because I wanted some sleep etc. However, that is only normal laziness as the one after a weekend and it is completely normal.
Post million statuses and make people associate Monday with the most horrible event of the year and every week - now that is nearly a crime.
Once I read that most people suffer from heart attack Monday morning, between 7 AM and 9AM. Which basically means they are so unhappy with whatever they are up to on Monday that they get so freakin nervous and sad they suffer a heart attack. To us, this is quite a spoiler: instead of making demotivations and saying your life sucks, you should actually start something you enjoy more. That is what Mondays are for. And if you think you are enjoying it, but just not on Mondays, you might end up as these people with heart attacks too.
That research itself is pointing out to us that we should carefully choose what do we wanna do in our lives. And starting that on Monday is a present, knowing that you will learn something new or that even you will be busy, you will still enjoy your day a lot.
And if your behaviour on Monday is way beyond just being lazy you should seriously overthink either your life changes or how you see the life.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with Mondays. Only with people.