Seriously, for some time I just thought I should stop doing such kind of thinking.
And that is how about ten years had passed.
Judging from the people I met, Japanese are very open-minded. I just have to in admit that I only met Japanese that were travelling or doing business abroad, so that is quite not the same as to meet them in Japan. Judging from the enourmous amount of anime and J-dramas I was able to overcome, I can also say that Japanese are very conservative.
Being conservative is not a bad neither a good quality. It so much depends on the situation. Since the suicide rates in Japan and in Lithuania, too, are quite high, and Lithuanians do have some national trait not to talk about their feelings, it might as well have a relation with the suicide rate.
However, today I just found out, that I'm seriously quite Japanese. I have at least the part of my mentalitet, which acts and reacts so Japanese - type.
I'm so sick of this European show-your-body-get-a-man type (I bet this also figures in Japan nowadays, but I just didn't encounter it much in the sources I was watching and reading). So sick of doing who knows who on the first dates. Of counting your former boyfriends until you can't remember the number anymore.
As the one who also had quite enough boyfriends, even though this was not serious and we also didn't do much, now I would change it. It is so cool to feel your first loves at the age that you can actually experience them with your right manners.
What in Europe you usually get during your first date with a man? Usually it is at least a kiss. Why is it so low? Why is it in a situation you can even call it at least?
Geez, I am so sick of it.
I'm so sick of this European show-your-body-get-a-man type (I bet this also figures in Japan nowadays, but I just didn't encounter it much in the sources I was watching and reading). So sick of doing who knows who on the first dates. Of counting your former boyfriends until you can't remember the number anymore.
As the one who also had quite enough boyfriends, even though this was not serious and we also didn't do much, now I would change it. It is so cool to feel your first loves at the age that you can actually experience them with your right manners.
What in Europe you usually get during your first date with a man? Usually it is at least a kiss. Why is it so low? Why is it in a situation you can even call it at least?
Geez, I am so sick of it.
You will probably judge me, and it's okay. You might as well say that there are more to it than Lithuanians and Japanese. That people differ. And you are probably right. I, myself, am not the type to count people like that. But it is only one way to look at it. Finally, you need to compare, that you would be able to judge and find your own virtues. And that is what I am doing.
Only for the first time in these ten years I got an idea that I might usually act as a Japanese person, before I start to supress it with my "Lithuanian-type-traits".
That maybe I am not the same person I was ten years ago. That from the first time I saw anime everything in me changed so deeply and I found the place where I fit in. Not because it is the dream of an Lithuanian princess. Just because I found a place to belong to.
That does not mean I am going to move to Japan. That means that I now can pursue my wished traits in my own way. Japanese girls have quite enough respect and elegance, they are usually a little shy (the way I see it). For me these qualities are what I seek.
So I just thought: what if I would try, conciously, to act a little bit more "Japanese"? Every time I feel I lack some trait, what, if I would try to act the way I see Japanese acting? It is so precious and well-mannered.
I'm not completely out of my mind. Today I watched quite enough of J-drama, I also talked with at least six or seven Japanese in skype, since my work is pretty much... Talking to Japanese.
After a day of this I start to feel the way I react changes. It does not seem unnatural to me. It is just different.
That maybe I am not the same person I was ten years ago. That from the first time I saw anime everything in me changed so deeply and I found the place where I fit in. Not because it is the dream of an Lithuanian princess. Just because I found a place to belong to.
That does not mean I am going to move to Japan. That means that I now can pursue my wished traits in my own way. Japanese girls have quite enough respect and elegance, they are usually a little shy (the way I see it). For me these qualities are what I seek.
So I just thought: what if I would try, conciously, to act a little bit more "Japanese"? Every time I feel I lack some trait, what, if I would try to act the way I see Japanese acting? It is so precious and well-mannered.
I'm not completely out of my mind. Today I watched quite enough of J-drama, I also talked with at least six or seven Japanese in skype, since my work is pretty much... Talking to Japanese.
After a day of this I start to feel the way I react changes. It does not seem unnatural to me. It is just different.
I think I might as well try this strategy. At least it is a new way to do things. And a new way to look at them. It does not differ much, they are just small details. Small details I find peace in. I was a little bit Japanese for about two hours today. I was in public. I bet, no one noticed.
Maybe after watching and reading and being interested so much in Japanese culture, it is nothing to be surprised about, to feel at least a little bit more Japanese. To find that mentalitet deep in your heart.
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